25 goals before my 26th birthday.

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My birthday isn’t until October 27th, I just like setting goals. And I kind of missed the New Years bus. So here they are. Some are easy, some are hard. Some take a long time, some take less than an hour. I will post about my progress as I go. I find in show business, you are either crazy busy, sore, and tired from working 8 shows a week, or you have oodles of time on your hands (read: unemployment). I want some ongoing plans and schemes that help keep me sane when it’s busy and fill in the cracks when I’m bored.

statement — come up with a mission statement about what i want from my life in the next five years

save — enough money to buy a real camera

cocktail — find out what my favourite cocktail is and how to make it; maybe make a bunch for some people and drink them together

learn — a new monologue

sew — a quilt. lofty. this quilt might be for a doll or something. just do it, Kayla.

write — a short story

compose — a song. start to finish

run — a race. best case scenario, a half marathon

read — a classic novel. jane eyre comes to mind

bake — and decorate an awesome cake from scratch. i’m thinking carrot cake with cream cheese frosting

class — take a class in something i’ve never done before

paint — a piece of artwork (then promptly hide it in the closet)

zumba — take my zumba teacher training

connect — with an old friend

travel — someplace new and undiscovered

bread — learn how to bake a beautiful loaf of bread

study — a book about finance

cook — a dinner party for a group of people

watch — the lord of the rings movies. i’ve been living under a rock

sing — a new song in an audition

teach — a class. hopefully zumba or dance related

style — a really wicked look for an event. hair, makeup, accessories, clothes, shoes. maybe for a friend

play — a song on guitar in front of another human being

restyle — an old piece. of furniture hopefully, clothing would work too

pull up — this one is lofty. do a pull up. i can do one from about halfway up at this point. i’ll keep working on it

Wish me luck!

Got any lofty goals for 2013?  What are they?

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"You want to work here? Close".

So this speech from Glengarry Glen Ross was brought to my attention by this article.  I think I just felt my whole world view shift.

It’s all about how the world owes you nothing.  I’ve always heard this said about theatre and show business.  “Show business owes you nothing.  It will spit you out when it’s done with you”.  But not about life.  It’s all about when we say “I’m lonely/don’t have a boyfriend/don’t have the job I want/don’t make enough money” it really comes down to “I don’t have anything to offer that makes people need me around”.  And it’s NOT about “I’m a nice person”.  As the author says.. That’s the bare minimum people!  It’s about things, skills, talents, that make people want to have you around.  Because you give them what they need.  We all need something.  What can you give me?  What do I bring to the table?

I live in world full of hopes and dreams.  “Broadway dreams, Sawyer.  We’ve all had ’em”.

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But as my friends’ therapist said, “You can’t live in a world full of hopes and dreams”.  I’ve translated that to mean, we can’t use them as currency in our lives.  We can hope and dream the night away, but it doesn’t mean anything.  It doesn’t propel us forward.  We have to DO things.  We have to CREATE things.  We have to work hard at improving the skills we have that people NEED.  Otherwise, dreams mean nothing.  All those quotes floating around the internet mean nothing as we stare at them on Pinterest and don’t act.

Wow, I’m all jazzed up.

I have been feeling so low.  That’s the thing with this business (world?), when it’s up, you’ve never been higher, but the lows are crushing.  And I’m low.  Show’s over.  No job.  Living with my parents.  But you know what?  I can DO something.  Anything.  I can write this post.  I can pick up my guitar.  I can cook a nice meal.  All these little things are helping to make me into a person with skills people need in life.

I know it’s not as simple as all this, but these points and the way they were laid out really resonated with me.  I can sit around and be sad about my situation, or I can act.  I can create.  And I will.

Thank you for listening.

Do you get what I’m laying down here?  Go read that article NOW!

April Goals.

1. Try not to kill my new herb garden.  I planted oregano, parsley, chives, cilantro, and basil in an at home mini-green house.  I hope I get some sprouts!  (SOURCE)

2. Post on this blog a minimum of 6 times per week. (SOURCE)

3. Learn how to make a killer martini.  Any kind.  Then drink it.  Maybe make one for a friend and drink them together.  (SOURCE)

4. Take my dog for a walk daily.  Even just around the block.

5. Make something.  Create something.  Don’t care what it is.  Just has to be made by me.  (SOURCE)

6. Run 40 miles. (SOURCE)

7. Strength train at least twice a week. (SOURCE)

8. Try not to buy this dress online.  I love it. (SOURCE)

If you won that huge lottery draw that’s happening in the States right now, what’s the first thing you’d do?

I’d buy a bunch of property all over the world and let all my family and friends use it for vacations and reunions!  Edmonton, Toronto, NYC, South Africa, London England, Los Angeles!  Oh yeah, and give some to charity.  🙂

Weekly Workouts

Here’s the stats from the last week.  I made a little more of a running effort, but let’s be honest, I hate treadmills.  2 miles is torture.  It’s probably for the best, though.  If I want to start running and racing again this summer I don’t want to burn myself out by starting too fast.  My stamina seems fine, it’s just my legs that get tired faster.  Rehearsals are really like interval training.  Your heart rate sky rockets for a couple minutes, then recover.  Repeat 5 or 6 times throughout the show.  Also, I’ll mention that “rest” days at this point are also rehearsal days.. lots of tap dancing and general merriment.

I think a new summer goal has emerged for me!  Do 2 body pump classes a week!  I am starting to see muscle development after starting the class last month, and I’m loving it!  I love the way the class is structured.  Fast pace, challenging.  But if you’re not feeling it that day, hold off on the weights you’re using!  Easy as that.

No yoga this week, though.  I’m kind of okay with that.

What was your favourite workout of the week?!  Mine was my Friday CRX class.  Great ab work!

Love vs. Fear

A lovely lady blogger/real life friend of mine Kelly (from Be Anything But Quiet!) recently posted about this idea of Love vs Fear.  It really got me thinking.  The idea is that we are motivated in everything we do by one or the other.  For example:

Do I go to the gym because I love myself? Because it makes me feel good, strong, healthy?  Because I love the way I feel afterwards?

Or do I go to the gym because I am scared of being fat?  Because I’m scared I won’t get cast in certain parts? Or worst of all, because I am not ENOUGH the way I am?

Deep.

Stick with me here.

In my opinion, fear motivated actions (with regards to fitness) are never going to last.  You can’t hate exercise your way to a healthy body and life.  It has to come from a place of love.  I do really love the feeling of sore muscles after a good workout.  I really love the feeling of sweat dripping off my elbows in hot yoga.  I love the way I feel after working out.  My friend, Alicia, who is a Bikram yoga instructor said in passing to me the other day, “I don’t LOVE yoga.  I love the way it makes me feel”.  She’s right.  Bikram is crazy hard.

I digress.

I was lying on a sweaty mat in a Moksha class last week and these love/fear thoughts were bouncing around with me.  I find yoga is a place that I get all body focused.  I am staring at myself in a mirror, scantily clad, and in a quiet room.  It’s like a pressure cooker sometimes.  I focused on trying to breathe in “love” and breathe out “fear”.  Like a mantra.  Every couple of breaths I would try and think of a specific thing I love (I love how strong my legs are in that pose) and then a couple breaths later I would think of a specific fear that I needed to let go of (I am scared that I’m not good enough to do what I do).  Hippy? Maybe?!  It was pretty deep at the time.  I enjoyed it.

I don’t think that I can honestly say that I have a completely healthy relationship with food and exercise.

I grew up in a bodysuit in front of the mirrors in ballet class.  I watched myself become the chubby kid.  I grew out of that stage, but I was never the “skinny” girl.  My teacher used to tell me that if I turned out properly I’d get rid of my “saddlebags”, from age 13 or so.  Love that double criticism eh?!  I now work in a field where I have to wear whatever they tell me to.  On stage.  In front of hundreds of people.  (When I see all this written out I wonder how I feel as sane as I do).

This all being said…

I want to move away from my fear based self talk.  I want to continue to do what I do, but not beat myself up about stuff that goes wrong.  I want to use this blog as a place to celebrate my accomplishments, share our triumphs, get advice from other healthy, active, positive people.  I really, truly, believe that Love is greater than fear.

Do you feel like you engage in negative, fear based, self talk?

PS- thanks for listening to my self counseling session!

Away We Go.

Let me draw your attention to a little post I wrote a while back… here it is.  I posted about my “Virtual Dream Board” on September 16th 2011.  The first thing I wrote about was “Performing at the Stratford Festival”.  I am happy to announce…

To put it simply, I have been dreaming about this moment since I was a child.  I have been going to see shows at Stratford my whole life because I grew up really close.  This is the biggest, most amazing thing that’s ever happened to me.  And it’s happening now.  That’s a crazy feeling.  My brain is exploding with happiness, anxiety, excitement, and fear of the unknown.  We start Friday.  I am thrilled, and terrified.  And my heart hurts because I had to move across the country and leave Mr. Best Things to cook for himself (hope he doesn’t starve..).  I miss him so much. It’s going to be a crazy hard next couple of months, but when your dreams are coming true in front of you, you grab them, right?  I want to write about this experience so I never forget what it felt like when this moment occurred.  Thank you for reading my ramblings and letting me express my excitement. This dream is 10 years in the making.

What’s your biggest, scariest dream?  The one that you need to write a virtual dream board about?!

I'm going streaking.

Got your attention? Not like naked at a sporting event.. ha!

This kind of streaking.

I’m going to be running an average of a mile per day from now until New Years as a way to stay motivated throughout the holiday season.  I figure, it’s not always easy to keep moving during Christmas, but I can do one mile, can’t I?  I mean, if I wanted to get it over with I could just sprint it out and it’d be over in like 8 or 9 minutes (or 10 or 11 these days who are we kidding).  And once in a while, I’m sure I’ll get on the treadmill, pound out a mile and keep going for the heck of it. I think this is just the kind of challenge I was looking for.  Nothing too overwhelming when you have family Christmas happening at your house for the first time ever.. (WTF?), just doable. I like it.

I ran my mile already today! Took me about 10 minutes. Now it’s done, and I’m off to do my show.

Happy Streaking! Join in the fun!

30 before 30.

I am 24, I realize.  But for some reason, I’ve been feeling like life is passing me by of late. I think the “twenties” are a deceptively tough time for women. I kind of feel like any moment now, my life is going to get ahead of me. Any moment now, I’ll jump on the “get engaged, get married, buy a house, have some kiddies” train.  And, don’t get me wrong, I’m really excited about that stage of my life. Like, really excited. Anyone who knows me, knows I’ve had the baby bug since I was about 16 years old. I just want to make sure that, in my life, I feel fulfilled. No matter how many other things are demanding my attention, I want to have fun, attainable, personal goals that I can work towards. Things that make me a happier, more well rounded person.

I am one of those super lucky people who made a career out of my hobby; dancing/performing. I LOVE that about my life. But, that’s the thing about hobbies… people need them to feel happy. We need something that takes us away from everything else in our lives. I’ve felt a little lost in my life without my “hobby” of dance. Because, as much as I love my job, it’s still a job some days. Lately, I’ve been searching for some hobbies/passions that can help me when I need a break from my job.

Enter, 30 before 30.  30 goals. to be completed by the time I’m 30. I didn’t want these to be like “have a family” or “buy a house”.  Stuff like that is so hard to pinpoint. There are so many unknowns with having kids and stuff like that. I want these goals to be about me. So that nothing outside of me can get in the way of me achieving them.

30 before 30.

1. Run a half-marathon

2. Run a marathon

3. Compete in 30 races

4. Complete a 30 day yoga challenge

5. Learn to sew on a sewing machine

6. Take a photography class

7. Take a cooking class

8. Complete a daily photography challenge

9. Blog everyday for 30 days

10. Make a piece of clothing for myself

11. Weigh my happy weight

12. Host a fantastic dinner party

13. Dye my hair an interesting colour

14. Take Mr. Best Things to South Africa to meet my family

15. Take a hot air balloon ride.

16. Be able to still do right and left leg splits and a straddle with my chest on the floor

17. Take a long road trip

18. Become a certified yoga teacher

19. Write a guest post for someone else’s blog

20. Get 100 views in a day on Best Things Happen…  (March 10th, 2012)

21. Go bungee jumping/sky diving.. something thrilling and mind bogglingly high off the ground

22. Climb a crazy high mountain.  One that takes more than a day is more than sufficient.

23. Stay up all night and watch the sun rise over a beach somewhere beautiful

24. Backpack through Europe with Mr. Best Things.

25. Spend a summer in NYC.

26. Create a recipe and publish a tutorial with beautiful, edited pictures

27. Get a degree

28. Go skinny dipping with Mr. Best Things

29. Volunteer somewhere

30. Move to a new home

November/December Goals.

I’ve been M.I.A. lately.  It’s because I’ve been living in the ’80s.  No, I didn’t time travel. I’ve just been working on The Wedding Singer at the Mayfield Dinner Theatre. It’s taken over my life. We work six days a week, up to 10 hours a day at times. We’ve just opened the show, and I can breathe again. Now, all I have to do is a show every night except Monday from now until February 5th. Living the dream, right?

Seriously, though, it has been an amazing ride. It’s always stressful, but I’m doing what I love, and getting paid to do so. How lucky am I?

I’ve been working to live lately instead of living my life and enjoying work as a part of that. I have fallen off the exercise wagon ever since I fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle, oh yeah, and it became -25C in Edmonton. I am not an all weather runner. Sure, I would run outside in reasonable winter temps; this is not what happens in Edmonton. This get f*ing cold here. Not like, let’s wear a scarf today weather. Like, I may die alone in my driveway because my nostrils froze closed in a matter of seconds cold. So I will be spending some quality time with our treadmill, incorporating some yoga, as well as strength training. To be honest, I do get a pretty good cardio interval workout throughout the show, so I’m not too worried about that.

So here we go: Let’s get back on track.  The holidays are coming, and the winter is not going anywhere. Let’s make the best of what we have.

Goals to be Completed by December 31st, 2011

1. Exercise (out side of the show) 3-4 times/week.

2. Keep holiday spending under control. Make gifts, make cards, bake, do things with people instead of spending money on them.

3. Sleep 8 hours a night and not too much more. Just because I don’t have to work until 8 pm, I get into habits of sleeping in until noon (todays was a great example, woke up at 12:36pm…)

4. Clutter Cleanup 2011. Donate old clothes, chuck things that aren’t being used, don’t purchase new crap, sell unneeded shoes/clothes online.

5. 10 second tidy.  This was an October goal that I loved.  Make bed in the mornings, spend a small amount of time in the mornings and evenings making things neater than you found them.

6. Track food. Write down what I eat and count it. I’m not too terribly concerned about losing weight at this point what with the holidays and all. Just want to keep things on track.

There you have it.  Wish me luck!

October Goals

1. Sweat 6 days a week

-as long as I’m sweating, it counts.  Running, yoga, weights, abs!

2. Lose 3 lbs 

-go to weekly meetings and stay for the lessons!

-cook healthy meals at home

-make healthy choices at work

-track daily points

3. Read a book

-I am usually an avid reader, but I’m in a bit of a  lull right now.  Jump back on the bandwagon!

4. Set up a budget

-talk about things with Mr. Best Things.

-set aside tax money, agent commission, car payments, insurance, rainy day fund

-understand where my money is going

5. Lower intake of Diet Coke to one/day

-this is the beginning of a major goal of mine to CUT OUT DIET COKE!  But I don’t want to rush things and go cold turkey.  Slow and steady wins the race, right?  Wish me luck!