getting back in shape…

workoutI’m off to Edmonton in a week from today to start my next musical! I’ll be doing Spamalot at the Citadel Theatre and I’m really excited. Of course, getting back to class was first on my agenda over these past two months in Toronto. I’ve been doing my best to eat cleanly and get to the gym and the dance studio as frequently as possible. It’s been going well! I just wanted to post my little chart as some self motivation and accountability!

PS- You should go and check out the Fitnessista‘s workout circuits. I love them.

 

It’s Valentine’s Day? I hadn’t noticed..

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Liebster Award

I got a lovely comment from a lovely lady the other day named Melissa from Total Mama Makeover saying she’d nominated me for a Liebster award! I was thrilled!  Thanks Melissa!!

 

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So what is the Liebster?  Here is what it is all about:

1. This award is given to new or up and coming bloggers who have less than 200 followers.

2. The award is then passed along to other bloggers in the same category to help spread the word and support one another.

3. Each blogger should post 11 random facts about themselves.

4. Answer the questions the tagger has set for you, then create 11 new questions for the bloggers you pass the award to.

5. Choose 11 new bloggers (with less than 200 followers) to pass the award to and link them in your post.

6. Go back to their page and tell them about the award.

7. No tag backs.

RANDOM FACTS!

1) My family is from South Africa. Both my parents were born and raised there. I spent a lot of time visiting there as a kid! It’s like this secret part of my life that no one knows about. I’m excited to share it with someone some day.

2) I really enjoy celebrating my birthday. It gets out of hand; everything I eat for the whole month is deemed “birthday” treat. Every thing I buy myself is for my birthday.. I’m sorry everyone!

3) I think I apologize too much. I think I’m quick to try and avoid confrontation and admit defeat. I don’t like that about myself.

4) I have anxiety. I worry a lot. About everything. Parents and teachers never had to punish me because I’d already beat myself up so much about whatever I’d done wrong.

5) I wanted to be an Olympic gymnast like Dominique Mocheanu from Atlanta ’96. I took gymnastics at the time. I had it BAD!

6) I was scared of dogs for a long time. I’m still nervous of big dogs running towards me. But I love my own dog to pieces now. I can’t imagine my life without her.

7) I love to dance. Dancing is something I don’t remember not doing. It’s as much a part of me as my own arm or the sound of my own voice.

8) I’ve never cheated on a test or stolen something.

9) Last time I counted, I’d had more than 30 roommates in the last 8 years. I move around so much for work and I end up living with different people. Once I lived in a house with 8 other people. And one bathroom. Ugh.

10) I want to have babies!

11) Not right now though. But one day in the near future!

MELISSA’S QUESTIONS!

Why did you start blogging? — As a way to contribute to this community that I’d been reading about for so long. To participate instead of just consuming content. To write, create, and inspire myself. And maybe others :)

What’s one thing people would be surprised to know about you? — I am a vegetarian now, but I never really like meat. I didn’t like anything with skin or bones. It was too close for comfort.

Morning person or night owl? — Depends on whether I’m running a show. When I’m starting work at 6pm, then I’m a night owl. Normal life? Medium morning person. Like 8 am is great. Earlier than that sucks. I’m saving up my sleep now for when I have kids.

What’s your favorite place on earth? — 21 Daisy Way, Cape Town, South Africa. My Granny’s old backyard. You could see the mountain. There was a pool and the most lovely garden. It was heaven.

What’s your dream vacation spot? — Right now, I’m feeling beach vacation. Maybe Hawaii? Beach, book, beer. Thank you very much.

Describe your worst date ever. — I haven’t had any crazy bad ones.. Once I had a guy stuff a piece of bison in my wrap after I politely refused and told him I was a veggie. Then I didn’t eat that half of the wrap. Which he found weird. huh.

What’s one fear you’ve overcome? — I was absolutely terrified of singing by myself. I didn’t even audition for the school musical in grade nine. Three years later I was auditioning for Musical Theatre school. It was years before I shook off most of the nerves. I still deal with some pretty bad nervous energy even now. Worse than most performers I know.

Has a piece of art – a book, a song, a film – ever had a profound impact on your life? — The Sound Of Music movie with Julie Andrews. I watched it over and over on VHS. I used to skip over the love songs and just get to anything with the kids. Especially Liesel. I loved her so much.

What is your biggest pet peeve? — Bad grammar. When someone doesn’t know their “yours” or “theirs”.

What do you do to combat stress and anxiety? — A lot of self talk. Reminding myself that there are only certain things I can control, like preparation. And I’ve done my hard work. And that’s all I can do. The rest is out of my control. So it’s not worth worrying about. Hard work in advance really helps me feel prepared.

You can invite any three people in the world to your fantasy dinner party.  Who’s coming? — My mom, her brother, and her sister. Because they live all over the world. And it kills her. She loves them more than anything. And it would make her year.

 

PEOPLE I’VE TAGGED!

Brittany @ Dulcie Vie

Mallory @ Sit for your job, run for your life

Dance, Love, Dine

Chelsea @ Mixed Mediums Theatre

Kelly @ Be Anything But Quiet

Amy @ Army Amy

Jess @ Flying on Jess Fuel

Questionably Texan

Jolene @ Miss. Once Upon a Marathon

Christine @ Bookishly Boisterous

G M Runs

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Thanks for reading friends!! Happy Tagging!

{500} days of…

You know that movie, 500 days of Summer? It’s great, you should see it. It’s a real life love story that doesn’t work out in a perfect Disney romance kind of way.

500daysIt was actually kind of hard to watch given the current circumstances (read: breakup). But I think it was necessary. It got me thinking… in cliches, unfortunately.

1) It’s not the destination but the journey that counts

2) Time heals everything (name that musical theatre song..)

3) Nothing lasts forever

4) The darkest moments come just before the dawn

I could go on, but I won’t. I think it’s easy to be angry. Not at the person, but at the world. Why can’t this work out as easily as it has worked out for (insert your happily coupled friends names here)? What if I made a mistake? What if that was my chance and I missed it? What if he’s the one?

Well, as Dan Savage says, “there is no one, we find someone that’s close enough and we round them up”. (PS- if you don’t know who Dan Savage is you should probably go listen to the Savage Love Podcast right now.. GO!). I think what I am trying to say is that although I kind of broke my own heart, and it sucks, and I feel crappy about it, and I’ll never be sure what could’ve happened, I’ll never know what was the “right” thing to do, and I miss him, and I’m lonely…

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In this picture, I was in Verona, Italy putting up a love note to Juliet on this wall near her statue that’s full of love letters.

I regret nothing.

Because what has been in my life, is part of where I’m going. And I don’t know where that is yet, because I don’t know when my “500” days of Summer will be over, because maybe my movie title is “458 days of Summer” or “1 334 days of Summer”. I won’t know until it’s Autumn. But I’m the star of this movie, and I’m going to do my best to enjoy the ride while it lasts. Because no matter what the outcome, my summer was full of good, lovely, wonderful times. And just because the end result wasn’t marriage or death (that’s what we think of as the only acceptable outcome to successful relationships), it doesn’t mean the journey wasn’t really amazing and memorable.

 

so you want to run a half marathon?

 

I’m not an expert runner. But, I will tell you the first step to running a half marathon. The undeniably, undisputed, unremarkable fact is: Lady, you gotta run. It’s January; I don’t want to. It’s cold. There’s f-ing ice on the sides of the roads. But you know what? I still loved it. It was hard, given the fact that I can’t actually remember the last time I ran. I walked a bit in the middle, stopped to take photos, and lingered to observe an older couple walking down the path smiling, hand in hand. But I did it.

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I love the running path in my little city. In the summer it’s packed with kiddies learning to ride bikes and dogs who should be on leashes but aren’t. But in the winter, on a crisp morning like today, it was almost deathly still. In the most beautiful way. Every now and then I could hear the ice cracking along the shore. I’ve always said, I can handle winter if there’s sun. And blue sky. And no snow. And it doesn’t last too long. Let’s be real, winter can be over now that I enjoyed it so much today.
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It’s a little sad that I ran a 5 mile race a little over a year ago in 45 minutes, and now I can run 3 miles in 37 minutes, but, I ‘m not going to dwell on that. The “speed” didn’t go anywhere. It’s there, ready to be awakened again. I’ll never be super speedy, but I do have a lot of room for improvement within my own abilities. Also, I have no desire to get injured or anything even close. If I run, I want it to run easy, focused on the world around me. I don’t want to be in pain.
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Best part of all this, was I took my sweet Dog for a waltz around the park afterwards. She was really happy about that fact.
Do you run? What’s the longest you’ve ever taken off from running?

things I’m dreaming about in January.

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it’s winter. i’m stuck inside. i don’t have a job (yet.. there is hope in sight on this front!) and therefore will not go shopping. i haven’t bought anything for myself other than absolute necessities in months. i feel great about that fact. as I say with this industry, you get high highs and low lows. it just means that i’m comfortable wearing fancy dresses and expensive shoes, but i’m just as used to saving money, wearing sweatpants, and being responsible. that’s the optimistic way to look at it anyway.

1. I have my eye on this camera. I want to be able to pay for it outright and not stress about it being on a credit card. I want to earn it by saving for it.

2. A simple knit circle scarf is always on my mind. I’m crocheting a lot lately, but this one is just stunning.

3. This Manifesto Tee is so classic and simple but it’s blowing my mind. I love the handwriting on it; it’s actually the designers handwriting I believe.

4. The combat boots with the pattern detail. I would wear these everyday; I have visions of all the socks I would wear with these..

5. David’s Tea. All of it. All the time. I’ve finished off our Christmas stash. Must replenish.

6. Just started this book, and while I don’t agree with absolutely everything she’s saying, it is blowing my mind. Excited to keep reading.

What are you dreaming about these days? Far off destinations? Me too..

just another day at the office.

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I had to make an audition tape the other day. Not my favourite way to audition, but man, if it comes through, it’s totally worth it. There’s just always lots of drama involved. Who’s going to record the tracks? How fast can I learn the songs? Who am I going to get to read with me? The list goes on. And you never have very much time. And the quality is never really that amazing when I use my mac book. Still, I have booked a job here or there using a tape; so I won’t say no to making one!

The fun part is the dressing up. I woke up early and got to work, curling, styling, spraying, applying false lashes, and lipstick. I don’t tend to put on a “costume” or try to look exactly like the character I’m auditioning for, but I do kind of lean towards their style in my own way. Like if you’re auditioning for a young lover in the 1950s, I’d for sure wear a dress and heels. Help them to see you in the role. Plus, I love testing out new makeup and hairstyles, so I tend to play around more often than not. If I’m going to a dance call, all bets are off. Then it’s just about something that will last through sweat and bouncing around. I tend to look like I didn’t even curl my hair after most dance calls.

I had a lot of fun with this 1950s inspired look! Don’t you wish we had time to do our hair like this everyday? It’s so mad men.

when i grow up.

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I wanted to take a moment and acknowledge how little I know about anything.

When I was 17, I decided I wanted to be an actor. I auditioned for Sheridan. I worked really hard on all my materials and did everything I could to try and get in the program. At the time, for some weird reason, I decided that if I didn’t get into Sheridan for Musical Theatre, then I wasn’t meant to be in this industry. I didn’t apply to any other theatre schools. I put all my eggs in one basket and you know what? I got in. I took it as a sign. I could do this. I could be a professional musical theatre performer.

Looking back, I realize how crazy that was. It’s one school. It’s one small group of people’s opinions. Lots of people who haven’t gone to Sheridan are very successful. But I made my decision and I didn’t second guess myself. And so far, it’s paid off.

Now that I’m 25, I wonder where that self assurance went. Maybe it’s just a part of growing up. I thought I would have things so much closer to figured out by now. I thought I would be more sure of myself at 25 than 17; but it’s not the case. I have more questions than ever. I have more worries than ever.

I’m going to go out on a limb here and say the first step to knowing everything is admitting you know nothing.

So now I want to try and listen more than I talk. Accept people for who they are instead of trying to fit them into the boxes I’ve saved for them in my head. Let people bring something to the table instead of strong arming them into following my lead. Allow the good in the world to come to me instead of trying to create a vacuum to force it towards me.

Do you get more sure of yourself as you get older? Or is it all downhill from here? :)

welcome home

do you need a little faith in humanity today? It’s just like in Love Actually (love that movie). The arrivals gate is where you will see pure joy. My favourite is watching kids run full tilt at their incoming family members. My family is all over the world, and I can remember that feeling as a kid. You don’t have all the adult anxiety of “Do they think I look older? Taller? Fatter?” or “I’m nervous/excited about this visit with this person I haven’t seen in forever”. When you’re a kid, none of that matters. There’s your Granny, so you run. There’s your dad home from a trip, don’t waste time, run and jump on him! Love, actually is, all around. Happy Tuesday.

25 goals before my 26th birthday.

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My birthday isn’t until October 27th, I just like setting goals. And I kind of missed the New Years bus. So here they are. Some are easy, some are hard. Some take a long time, some take less than an hour. I will post about my progress as I go. I find in show business, you are either crazy busy, sore, and tired from working 8 shows a week, or you have oodles of time on your hands (read: unemployment). I want some ongoing plans and schemes that help keep me sane when it’s busy and fill in the cracks when I’m bored.

statement — come up with a mission statement about what i want from my life in the next five years

save — enough money to buy a real camera

cocktail — find out what my favourite cocktail is and how to make it; maybe make a bunch for some people and drink them together

learn — a new monologue

sew — a quilt. lofty. this quilt might be for a doll or something. just do it, Kayla.

write — a short story

compose — a song. start to finish

run — a race. best case scenario, a half marathon

read — a classic novel. jane eyre comes to mind

bake — and decorate an awesome cake from scratch. i’m thinking carrot cake with cream cheese frosting

class — take a class in something i’ve never done before

paint — a piece of artwork (then promptly hide it in the closet)

zumba — take my zumba teacher training

connect — with an old friend

travel — someplace new and undiscovered

bread — learn how to bake a beautiful loaf of bread

study — a book about finance

cook — a dinner party for a group of people

watch — the lord of the rings movies. i’ve been living under a rock

sing — a new song in an audition

teach — a class. hopefully zumba or dance related

style — a really wicked look for an event. hair, makeup, accessories, clothes, shoes. maybe for a friend

play — a song on guitar in front of another human being

restyle — an old piece. of furniture hopefully, clothing would work too

pull up — this one is lofty. do a pull up. i can do one from about halfway up at this point. i’ll keep working on it

Wish me luck!

Got any lofty goals for 2013?  What are they?

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